life
What did I tell you? These posts may be a little sporadic and this month’s pretty much proved that. I have been meaning to post but in all honesty, February was a constant up and down both health wise and mentally that I decided to try not to worry about not posting much and focus a little bit more on myself.



HEALTH.
I guess probably the most important thing to update you all on is the usual ongoing health issues. Living with a chronic issue is never really easy but touch wood I think I’ve finally found the right combinations of medicines that work for me. Touch wood! I’m really hoping I’ve not just jinxed this and fucked it all up.

After a disgustingly awful month and a half of my stomach having a complete mind of it’s own and unable to pretty much retain anything (I’ll save you all the gory details) I’ve found that cutting one of the main tablets I’m on down by half has (again touch wood) pretty much knocked that problem on the head for now. Of course it doesn’t do much about the whole host of other complications but it’s certainly a start.

I also had to have another Hydrogen Breath Test. Perhaps the most mundane and dull test in the world but at least it didn’t involve any canulas so I’d take that over anything any day. As suspected there’s still a rather high level of bacteria in my small and large intestines so I’ve been back on the antibiotics to try and help with that but apparently it’s a pretty much ‘chicken and the egg’ scenario. As my stomach isn’t functioning or even working properly it’s in a constant state of creating harmful bacteria (apparently), so it’s mostly just a case of constant monitoring and seeing how we go.

I’ve also just had my first root canal thanks to some bad fillings done by my old dentist. It wasn’t the nicest experience in the world but now I’ve switched to a new practise and dentist (who’s incredibly lovely by the way) it wasn’t as bad as I’d worried. You always hear so many horror stories but touch wood I think it’s really helped. Thank god!


LIFE.
Health issues aside, life seems to be going okay right now. Again, all touch wood and everything. I’ve got quite a few blog posts in mind and semi/kinda half drafted… or at least in bullet point form. All I need to do now is properly type them up and get them posted. No matter how much I ramble on and go off topic whilst trying to make them make even the slightest bit of sense.

FUN.
Tickets for My Chemical Romance are now (finally) in place for June and I can't wait. However, with everything happening around the world right now I’m keeping everything crossed and silently hoping and praying that everything will be on track and go accordingly. It’s just such a shame that so many poor people are falling ill right now. Hopefully there’ll be some breakthrough or vaccine ASAP and everyone affected can start getting better. Roll on a happier, warmer and safer June.

BIRTHDAY.
Lastly, I turned 28 which is pretty terrifying to be honest as I swear I only turned 18 last year. Actually amazed at where the years have gone and how that’s happened. Not to sound too much like a hypochondriac or anything. I think with all the complications and issues with my stomach some days I do worry here and there. But yay for my 28th year on earth! It was a pretty quiet day as the weather was absolutely bloody awful. Talk about a rainstorm! But it actually made it really relaxed and just less of a rush. Plus with a bit of a mini flare up in the morning – always typical! It really took the pressure off a bit of having to go out somewhere, find a place I can actually eat and then try and manage to get through a whole meal. In the end we just ordered some really delicious vegan pizza and stayed tucked up at home. Much more cozy and my kind of vibe.



I think that’s it for now. All in all nothing too amazing or exciting to report but please keep an eye on my Instagram for more daily updates, outfit posts and general rabbiting on. Thanks for reading.

— j

  • Saturday, March 07, 2020

february catch up.

What did I tell you? These posts may be a little sporadic and this month’s pretty much proved that. I have been meaning to post but in all honesty, February was a constant up and down both health wise and mentally that I decided to try not to worry about not posting much and focus a little bit more on myself.



HEALTH.
I guess probably the most important thing to update you all on is the usual ongoing health issues. Living with a chronic issue is never really easy but touch wood I think I’ve finally found the right combinations of medicines that work for me. Touch wood! I’m really hoping I’ve not just jinxed this and fucked it all up.

After a disgustingly awful month and a half of my stomach having a complete mind of it’s own and unable to pretty much retain anything (I’ll save you all the gory details) I’ve found that cutting one of the main tablets I’m on down by half has (again touch wood) pretty much knocked that problem on the head for now. Of course it doesn’t do much about the whole host of other complications but it’s certainly a start.

I also had to have another Hydrogen Breath Test. Perhaps the most mundane and dull test in the world but at least it didn’t involve any canulas so I’d take that over anything any day. As suspected there’s still a rather high level of bacteria in my small and large intestines so I’ve been back on the antibiotics to try and help with that but apparently it’s a pretty much ‘chicken and the egg’ scenario. As my stomach isn’t functioning or even working properly it’s in a constant state of creating harmful bacteria (apparently), so it’s mostly just a case of constant monitoring and seeing how we go.

I’ve also just had my first root canal thanks to some bad fillings done by my old dentist. It wasn’t the nicest experience in the world but now I’ve switched to a new practise and dentist (who’s incredibly lovely by the way) it wasn’t as bad as I’d worried. You always hear so many horror stories but touch wood I think it’s really helped. Thank god!


LIFE.
Health issues aside, life seems to be going okay right now. Again, all touch wood and everything. I’ve got quite a few blog posts in mind and semi/kinda half drafted… or at least in bullet point form. All I need to do now is properly type them up and get them posted. No matter how much I ramble on and go off topic whilst trying to make them make even the slightest bit of sense.

FUN.
Tickets for My Chemical Romance are now (finally) in place for June and I can't wait. However, with everything happening around the world right now I’m keeping everything crossed and silently hoping and praying that everything will be on track and go accordingly. It’s just such a shame that so many poor people are falling ill right now. Hopefully there’ll be some breakthrough or vaccine ASAP and everyone affected can start getting better. Roll on a happier, warmer and safer June.

BIRTHDAY.
Lastly, I turned 28 which is pretty terrifying to be honest as I swear I only turned 18 last year. Actually amazed at where the years have gone and how that’s happened. Not to sound too much like a hypochondriac or anything. I think with all the complications and issues with my stomach some days I do worry here and there. But yay for my 28th year on earth! It was a pretty quiet day as the weather was absolutely bloody awful. Talk about a rainstorm! But it actually made it really relaxed and just less of a rush. Plus with a bit of a mini flare up in the morning – always typical! It really took the pressure off a bit of having to go out somewhere, find a place I can actually eat and then try and manage to get through a whole meal. In the end we just ordered some really delicious vegan pizza and stayed tucked up at home. Much more cozy and my kind of vibe.



I think that’s it for now. All in all nothing too amazing or exciting to report but please keep an eye on my Instagram for more daily updates, outfit posts and general rabbiting on. Thanks for reading.

— j

January always brings a sense of starting over and the idea of a clean slate for the new year ahead. My 2018 wasn't great. There were constant ups and downs, my mental health really took a battering and sometimes I struggled to look forwards as all I could see was this neverending chronic illness that’d taken over my life. I want 2020 to be different and more positive, even if it's just a few little steps forwards or things to look forwards to/plan each month, at least it's somewhere to start off from. So I thought I’d try my best to put together a list of things I’d either like to achieve or will hopefully get to do each month. 


JANUARY

READ MORE BOOKS.
I’ve always been a massive bookworm but over the past few months I’ve found myself reaching for physical books less and less simply due to health, time and all the hours wasted I’ve spent mindlessly scrolling through Twitter (a habit I want to change). Luckily I received a few over Christmas or picked up in the sales/local charity shops so my main goal for 2020 is to finish those. There are six in total so in theory it should be easy. 

CONTINUE WORK ON MY PHYSICAL HEALTH.
This one’s a bit tricky as there’s no quick or easy fix. There’s also still no definitive cause or singular event my consultants can pinpoint as to what caused all this. It’s just a case of continuing to try different combinations of medicines to see what works the best with what. I’m just hoping that now we’re approaching being two years in to the physical symptoms (although in hindsight I’ve had symptoms here and there all my life) that there’s some sort of way to get and keep everything under control more effectively than it currently is.

WORK ON MY MENTAL HEALTH.
Something just as important as physical health is mental health and in all honesty, it’s really taken a sledgehammer of a battering with all that's gone on. Some days are good but there's others which sadly have been getting more and more frequent that I haven’t been able to do much besides cry, curl into a ball under five blankets and stare blankly into space whilst my thoughts spiral out of control. I want to try and not let everything get to me as much, which believe me is hard but I’m willing to give it my best shot this year.

GET TICKETS FOR THE MCR REUNION/TOUR.
Just putting it out positively into the world as I know trying to get tickets will be utter carnage. But I can positively dream and at least hope the universe gives me this one thing. Hoping that if I mention it enough it’ll happen so sorry if you've been listening to my endless prattling on since Halloween. 

BE MORE SUSTAINABLE & SHOP LESS.
Going completely in the opposite direction of what I’ve just said, I want 2020 to be the year I try and shop less, stop buying things I don’t really need and try to live a bit more eco friendly. I went pescitarian early last year both through choice and because my stomach can no longer digest meat or most dairy products. It’s not the biggest step but I like to think of it as a start. I’ve personally found it’s easier for me to eat more plant based leaning diets and there’s so many amazing vegan/veggie products on the market now that you’re really spoilt for choice. I’ve got my eye on the new Stella McCartney veggie chicken box and the Wagamama’s vegan katsu curry (just typing it is making me hungry!) I also have been having the best luck recently in charity shops, vintage emporiums and Depop when it comes to clothes, vinyls and other bits and pieces. I think it's just all about keeping a look out and trying to find it for the best price whilst also giving secondhand items and new home. I might actually put together a post about my best thrift/secondhand/Depop finds if anyones interested.

I’ll leave it there for now as I don't want to weigh myself down with a ridiculously long list for just one month but if you have any goals or plans in mind I’d love to hear about them.
- j
  • Sunday, January 05, 2020

monthly plans: janurary.

January always brings a sense of starting over and the idea of a clean slate for the new year ahead. My 2018 wasn't great. There were constant ups and downs, my mental health really took a battering and sometimes I struggled to look forwards as all I could see was this neverending chronic illness that’d taken over my life. I want 2020 to be different and more positive, even if it's just a few little steps forwards or things to look forwards to/plan each month, at least it's somewhere to start off from. So I thought I’d try my best to put together a list of things I’d either like to achieve or will hopefully get to do each month. 


JANUARY

READ MORE BOOKS.
I’ve always been a massive bookworm but over the past few months I’ve found myself reaching for physical books less and less simply due to health, time and all the hours wasted I’ve spent mindlessly scrolling through Twitter (a habit I want to change). Luckily I received a few over Christmas or picked up in the sales/local charity shops so my main goal for 2020 is to finish those. There are six in total so in theory it should be easy. 

CONTINUE WORK ON MY PHYSICAL HEALTH.
This one’s a bit tricky as there’s no quick or easy fix. There’s also still no definitive cause or singular event my consultants can pinpoint as to what caused all this. It’s just a case of continuing to try different combinations of medicines to see what works the best with what. I’m just hoping that now we’re approaching being two years in to the physical symptoms (although in hindsight I’ve had symptoms here and there all my life) that there’s some sort of way to get and keep everything under control more effectively than it currently is.

WORK ON MY MENTAL HEALTH.
Something just as important as physical health is mental health and in all honesty, it’s really taken a sledgehammer of a battering with all that's gone on. Some days are good but there's others which sadly have been getting more and more frequent that I haven’t been able to do much besides cry, curl into a ball under five blankets and stare blankly into space whilst my thoughts spiral out of control. I want to try and not let everything get to me as much, which believe me is hard but I’m willing to give it my best shot this year.

GET TICKETS FOR THE MCR REUNION/TOUR.
Just putting it out positively into the world as I know trying to get tickets will be utter carnage. But I can positively dream and at least hope the universe gives me this one thing. Hoping that if I mention it enough it’ll happen so sorry if you've been listening to my endless prattling on since Halloween. 

BE MORE SUSTAINABLE & SHOP LESS.
Going completely in the opposite direction of what I’ve just said, I want 2020 to be the year I try and shop less, stop buying things I don’t really need and try to live a bit more eco friendly. I went pescitarian early last year both through choice and because my stomach can no longer digest meat or most dairy products. It’s not the biggest step but I like to think of it as a start. I’ve personally found it’s easier for me to eat more plant based leaning diets and there’s so many amazing vegan/veggie products on the market now that you’re really spoilt for choice. I’ve got my eye on the new Stella McCartney veggie chicken box and the Wagamama’s vegan katsu curry (just typing it is making me hungry!) I also have been having the best luck recently in charity shops, vintage emporiums and Depop when it comes to clothes, vinyls and other bits and pieces. I think it's just all about keeping a look out and trying to find it for the best price whilst also giving secondhand items and new home. I might actually put together a post about my best thrift/secondhand/Depop finds if anyones interested.

I’ll leave it there for now as I don't want to weigh myself down with a ridiculously long list for just one month but if you have any goals or plans in mind I’d love to hear about them.
- j
Happy New Year! I’ve been thinking recently that I want to enter the ‘Rawin’ 20s xD’ (yes I went there fellow old/current emo kids just for ~nostalgia~) with a more positive outlook... hopefully. Or at least try to.

Twenty-nineteen was a little better than ‘18. Not good but better than it’d been before. I’ve got to the point mentally where I expect to be ill so I don’t get let down when I inevitably am, but when I do have a good day it’s a nice surprise. Maybe it’s acceptance, perhaps I just really can’t be arsed to worry over it too much these days. Shit literally happens. I’m sick & pretty fucking tired of letting it control my life and define me. I’d like to be more than ‘Jade with the fucked up stomach/bowel’.

However health/dates/circumstances depending I do have a few nice things in mind this year (hint, MyChem guys, please announce a world tour already!!! Saying that so many good bands/artists are touring this year. There’s another two I have in mind who’d I’d love to see.) I’d also love to eventually get back to work but in the meantime I want to try to get the creative side of my brain working. Maybe try to make something or other.

I want to continue building up my little instablog here. Ever since I switched to stuff that was more me & less trying to be a bit cookie cutter it’s really brought my love for writing & posting back. Even with the occasional dreaded mind blank. I’d also love to just get out more. See friends, family and meet new people (& get my anxiety under better control) it’s pretty dull stuck at home most days.

Finally, going back to the positive thing, I want to improve my self confidence. It was getting better until the big summer flare up of ‘19 then took a huge nosedive but I’d love to get a bit of it back. So to sum up my mammoth rambling: more positive outlook & self confidence; try to worry less; do/go places I’ve been hoping to go/do/see (seriously MCR announce the world tour!); aim time get back to work; create shit; blog more (including my actual blog); see friends & meet new people... a new character popping up in Riverdale doesn’t count!

I hope you all have a wonderful, positive new year. 🖤
- j
  • Friday, January 03, 2020

this is my roaring 20's.

Happy New Year! I’ve been thinking recently that I want to enter the ‘Rawin’ 20s xD’ (yes I went there fellow old/current emo kids just for ~nostalgia~) with a more positive outlook... hopefully. Or at least try to.

Twenty-nineteen was a little better than ‘18. Not good but better than it’d been before. I’ve got to the point mentally where I expect to be ill so I don’t get let down when I inevitably am, but when I do have a good day it’s a nice surprise. Maybe it’s acceptance, perhaps I just really can’t be arsed to worry over it too much these days. Shit literally happens. I’m sick & pretty fucking tired of letting it control my life and define me. I’d like to be more than ‘Jade with the fucked up stomach/bowel’.

However health/dates/circumstances depending I do have a few nice things in mind this year (hint, MyChem guys, please announce a world tour already!!! Saying that so many good bands/artists are touring this year. There’s another two I have in mind who’d I’d love to see.) I’d also love to eventually get back to work but in the meantime I want to try to get the creative side of my brain working. Maybe try to make something or other.

I want to continue building up my little instablog here. Ever since I switched to stuff that was more me & less trying to be a bit cookie cutter it’s really brought my love for writing & posting back. Even with the occasional dreaded mind blank. I’d also love to just get out more. See friends, family and meet new people (& get my anxiety under better control) it’s pretty dull stuck at home most days.

Finally, going back to the positive thing, I want to improve my self confidence. It was getting better until the big summer flare up of ‘19 then took a huge nosedive but I’d love to get a bit of it back. So to sum up my mammoth rambling: more positive outlook & self confidence; try to worry less; do/go places I’ve been hoping to go/do/see (seriously MCR announce the world tour!); aim time get back to work; create shit; blog more (including my actual blog); see friends & meet new people... a new character popping up in Riverdale doesn’t count!

I hope you all have a wonderful, positive new year. 🖤
- j


Originally posted: 23rd July 2019
Oat milk based caramel Frappuccino, let’s see if it holds (Really hope so because it tastes amazing!) Yesterday was spent having a wonderful reunion with family over from New Zealand and I think it’s made me more determined than ever to get my health in check (as much as possible which to be honest, probably isn’t much in the first place) and try and get out more. Pretty fed up of missing things and experiences; there’s a long long long long list! I don’t know if I’d get over to NZ in a hurry sadly but y’know... baby steps. Maybe one day!
  • Wednesday, September 11, 2019

family catch up, oat milk latte & kerrang!



Originally posted: 23rd July 2019
Oat milk based caramel Frappuccino, let’s see if it holds (Really hope so because it tastes amazing!) Yesterday was spent having a wonderful reunion with family over from New Zealand and I think it’s made me more determined than ever to get my health in check (as much as possible which to be honest, probably isn’t much in the first place) and try and get out more. Pretty fed up of missing things and experiences; there’s a long long long long list! I don’t know if I’d get over to NZ in a hurry sadly but y’know... baby steps. Maybe one day!


Originally posted: 17th July 2019
As much as I enjoy summery dresses and the warmer weather I’m ready for it to be Autumn now. Give me crunchy leaves, pumpkin flavoured everything, cute scarfs, actual pumpkins and an excuse to buy this super comfy Primark top in every seasonal colour. Today was spent back at the Chiropractor (now a recurring monthly thing) to release all the frozen/trapped nerves and muscles in my body and to also kick-start my colon back into (slowly) working order. I knew there was a reason Wednesdays have an iffy reputation.
  • Tuesday, September 10, 2019

wishing it was autumn & health update.



Originally posted: 17th July 2019
As much as I enjoy summery dresses and the warmer weather I’m ready for it to be Autumn now. Give me crunchy leaves, pumpkin flavoured everything, cute scarfs, actual pumpkins and an excuse to buy this super comfy Primark top in every seasonal colour. Today was spent back at the Chiropractor (now a recurring monthly thing) to release all the frozen/trapped nerves and muscles in my body and to also kick-start my colon back into (slowly) working order. I knew there was a reason Wednesdays have an iffy reputation.


Originally posted: 20th June 2019

Saturday will mark two weeks since I’ve been back at work and I still can’t quite believe I’m actually typing that. Last Saturday was interesting (queue one of the most horrific flare ups I’ve had in a long while) at one point I didn’t think I’d actually even make it in but I did and saw the shift through thank god. We’re now also 99.9% sure that all of these issues are partly hereditary. Looking back on how much my wonderful, lovely Grandma struggled in scarily the exact same way as me has been — in a sense, a form of inspiration. I can’t ever remember her complaining once. Unlike me who’ll complain until the cows come home. She just always seemed to get on with it as best she could and soldier on. I think that’s a good way to approach the bad days. Be more like a Grandma. Try your best, do what you can and always stop for tea and biscuits. 
  • Saturday, September 07, 2019

health update.



Originally posted: 20th June 2019

Saturday will mark two weeks since I’ve been back at work and I still can’t quite believe I’m actually typing that. Last Saturday was interesting (queue one of the most horrific flare ups I’ve had in a long while) at one point I didn’t think I’d actually even make it in but I did and saw the shift through thank god. We’re now also 99.9% sure that all of these issues are partly hereditary. Looking back on how much my wonderful, lovely Grandma struggled in scarily the exact same way as me has been — in a sense, a form of inspiration. I can’t ever remember her complaining once. Unlike me who’ll complain until the cows come home. She just always seemed to get on with it as best she could and soldier on. I think that’s a good way to approach the bad days. Be more like a Grandma. Try your best, do what you can and always stop for tea and biscuits. 


Originally posted: 11th June 2019

I’ll be honest, I didn’t think I’d be writing these words for an awfully long time. I’m going back to work! If you’d told me this way back in October I probably wouldn’t have believed you. I’m by no means cured as even just last night my stomach decided to play up quite a bit — but it’s a good step in the right direction. Fingers crossed.
  • Friday, September 06, 2019

back to work.



Originally posted: 11th June 2019

I’ll be honest, I didn’t think I’d be writing these words for an awfully long time. I’m going back to work! If you’d told me this way back in October I probably wouldn’t have believed you. I’m by no means cured as even just last night my stomach decided to play up quite a bit — but it’s a good step in the right direction. Fingers crossed.
Welcome to the infamous “I hate trying to be pink and girly” Instagram (and now blog) post/spark of realization. You’ve been warned...



Originally posted: 24th May 2019

Been a bit quiet on here recently as I feel like I’ve been stuck in a rut Instagram-wise. To be completely honest with you all I’m sick to death of trying to keep up with everyone else out there, the pressure to need a ‘theme’ and everything else that usually comes with blogging. I’ve never really been big into the whole ‘pink and girly everywhere’ thing – not to say that people who are are wrong, they make it look so lovely for them. It’s just not really for me personally. Give me a band t-shirt or ratty old converse and jeans any day. I think I’m just passed trying to fit in with what (at least I believe to be) are expected criteria for most bloggers currently. I don’t think I’ll ever truly be a ‘typical’ blogger. I came into this years ago not knowing anything about beauty and skincare (two of the big things I tried to kid myself about knowing) and I still know nothing! I want to try and shift my focus back to things I do truly love. Music, TV & Netflix, books, bits and pieces that have caught my interest and updating about general life and health. I want to go back to what originally inspired me, and still does; seeing my cousin years ago working at her Uni paper and then NME & within the music industry reviewing bands and music and thinking how freaking cool that was! That that was even a career option! Of course I do love a good face mask and lipstick as much as the next person but I don’t think I can solely build a proper and worthwhile blog around just that. I still do like those things also, I just don’t want that to be my only thing. Does that make sense? I hope so. So yeah, if you’ve read this then thank you and hopefully you’ll stick around! Also finally I’m heading back to work soon as the medication I’m now on is mostly keeping things stable and I can’t wait! Shall keep you all updated as always.
  • Friday, September 06, 2019

more authentically me.

Welcome to the infamous “I hate trying to be pink and girly” Instagram (and now blog) post/spark of realization. You’ve been warned...



Originally posted: 24th May 2019

Been a bit quiet on here recently as I feel like I’ve been stuck in a rut Instagram-wise. To be completely honest with you all I’m sick to death of trying to keep up with everyone else out there, the pressure to need a ‘theme’ and everything else that usually comes with blogging. I’ve never really been big into the whole ‘pink and girly everywhere’ thing – not to say that people who are are wrong, they make it look so lovely for them. It’s just not really for me personally. Give me a band t-shirt or ratty old converse and jeans any day. I think I’m just passed trying to fit in with what (at least I believe to be) are expected criteria for most bloggers currently. I don’t think I’ll ever truly be a ‘typical’ blogger. I came into this years ago not knowing anything about beauty and skincare (two of the big things I tried to kid myself about knowing) and I still know nothing! I want to try and shift my focus back to things I do truly love. Music, TV & Netflix, books, bits and pieces that have caught my interest and updating about general life and health. I want to go back to what originally inspired me, and still does; seeing my cousin years ago working at her Uni paper and then NME & within the music industry reviewing bands and music and thinking how freaking cool that was! That that was even a career option! Of course I do love a good face mask and lipstick as much as the next person but I don’t think I can solely build a proper and worthwhile blog around just that. I still do like those things also, I just don’t want that to be my only thing. Does that make sense? I hope so. So yeah, if you’ve read this then thank you and hopefully you’ll stick around! Also finally I’m heading back to work soon as the medication I’m now on is mostly keeping things stable and I can’t wait! Shall keep you all updated as always.


Originally posted: 3rd May 2019

Today's been a day full of bargains & good news! I had another appointment with the consultant who says the tablets/combination of tablets I'm on are working well & although it’s still a lifelong condition hopefully it’ll be a little bit easier to manage if things keep going as they are. So fingers and toes crossed! Afterwards we popped into Christchurch & I found this gorgeous Jellycat vampire bat. He was all on his own and half price so I really had no other choice but to re-home him. I'd actually gone in because a little rabbit had caught my eye but he was so sweet, I just couldn’t leave him behind. Then to make things even better we spotted this little table top sale and it was chock-full of these vinyl style cds. went a little bit ham as they were all 50p so picked up some Arctic Monkeys, Bowie & a few others. All in all a pretty decent day! 
  • Friday, September 06, 2019

vampire bats, health & bargain cd's.



Originally posted: 3rd May 2019

Today's been a day full of bargains & good news! I had another appointment with the consultant who says the tablets/combination of tablets I'm on are working well & although it’s still a lifelong condition hopefully it’ll be a little bit easier to manage if things keep going as they are. So fingers and toes crossed! Afterwards we popped into Christchurch & I found this gorgeous Jellycat vampire bat. He was all on his own and half price so I really had no other choice but to re-home him. I'd actually gone in because a little rabbit had caught my eye but he was so sweet, I just couldn’t leave him behind. Then to make things even better we spotted this little table top sale and it was chock-full of these vinyl style cds. went a little bit ham as they were all 50p so picked up some Arctic Monkeys, Bowie & a few others. All in all a pretty decent day! 


Originally posted: 17th April 2019

It’s safe to say 2019 me is an improvement on 2010 (I hope! also what is with that hair?  A badly done Hayley Williams inspired look — the orange and red had grown out and faded & I still can’t hold anything properly it seems. Although I would love to get this hair redone properly.) I’m actually amazed this top still fits. I've been stuck in such a blogging/Insta rut recently & just couldn’t find any inspiration. Hopefully now the sun’s shining it’ll bring some new ideas along with it. Spoiler: it did!
  • Friday, September 06, 2019

2019 vs 2010.



Originally posted: 17th April 2019

It’s safe to say 2019 me is an improvement on 2010 (I hope! also what is with that hair?  A badly done Hayley Williams inspired look — the orange and red had grown out and faded & I still can’t hold anything properly it seems. Although I would love to get this hair redone properly.) I’m actually amazed this top still fits. I've been stuck in such a blogging/Insta rut recently & just couldn’t find any inspiration. Hopefully now the sun’s shining it’ll bring some new ideas along with it. Spoiler: it did!
So the last time I posted on here it was January, I was stuck in a rut with both my health (not that it's actually gotten any better) and with blogging. I'd completely fallen out of love with the whole concept and due to how ill I was at the time I couldn't be bothered - or even had the energy to sit down and write endlessly.

Since then I've focused my attention to my Instagram. It seemed less of a chore and suited my circumstances (vomiting endlessly) to turn that into a little mini blog all of its own with micro captions and a snazzy photo or two.

A lot has happened from then to now so I thought I'd see how it goes with posting those little updates/blog posts on here too. I don't think i'll post every single post between January and now. More so a few important ones and then start off with the time I said "screw it, I hate trying to be girly" (I tried keeping up with the typical Instagram aesthetic pink theme and hated it with every fiber of my being. You'll see it's a fun post.) and then continue with the ones that are more authentically me.

Without delaying it any longer, here's the time I had to have a PH Monitoring test and spent a whole 24 hours doing an Oscar-worthy impression of the Exorcist. Hey, if you can't try and find even a slither of humor in these things all you can do is cry.




24 hour PH Monitoring test
Originally posted: 19th March 2019

Meet my latest (for the next 24 hours) fashion accessory. Not gonna lie I feel crap, my throat kills & I vomited exorcist style all over the lovely nurse when they put in the first tube which was twice the size of this one (to test the muscles in the esophagus. This one is monitoring the acid reflux/belching/vomiting I constantly get) but it’s in & that’s the important thing. Apart from that I’m ok just counting down the hours until it can come back out & with any luck, get some answers as to what causes it all. I've got so much love & respect for tubies everywhere who have it so much worse & live with these tubes & monitors 24/7, honestly, how do you do it? I'm going to attempt to document this process in the hope it may help someone out there going through a similar thing so if you’re interested, click on my Instagram highlights. Also excuse the filter (although much needed) as I look rather bleh.




Originally posted: 20th March 2019

Don’t be alarmed, the tube is out & the test is over! Just was chuffed at managing to do a bit of makeup yesterday without dislodging anything or ending up with concealer everywhere! So at a quick first glance, annoying nothing horrifically wrong showed up (typically.) However, I did belch/burp approximately 563 times in 15 hours (minus the 9 hours I was asleep) during the 24 hour period, which to me isn’t normal at all! Hopefully everything will be back by next week and my doctor can see where we go forward. A massive thank you to everyone who messaged, it was really comforting to know there’s people around me who care & understand. You’re all wonderful
  • Friday, September 06, 2019

a new approach to blogging & ph monitoring test.

So the last time I posted on here it was January, I was stuck in a rut with both my health (not that it's actually gotten any better) and with blogging. I'd completely fallen out of love with the whole concept and due to how ill I was at the time I couldn't be bothered - or even had the energy to sit down and write endlessly.

Since then I've focused my attention to my Instagram. It seemed less of a chore and suited my circumstances (vomiting endlessly) to turn that into a little mini blog all of its own with micro captions and a snazzy photo or two.

A lot has happened from then to now so I thought I'd see how it goes with posting those little updates/blog posts on here too. I don't think i'll post every single post between January and now. More so a few important ones and then start off with the time I said "screw it, I hate trying to be girly" (I tried keeping up with the typical Instagram aesthetic pink theme and hated it with every fiber of my being. You'll see it's a fun post.) and then continue with the ones that are more authentically me.

Without delaying it any longer, here's the time I had to have a PH Monitoring test and spent a whole 24 hours doing an Oscar-worthy impression of the Exorcist. Hey, if you can't try and find even a slither of humor in these things all you can do is cry.




24 hour PH Monitoring test
Originally posted: 19th March 2019

Meet my latest (for the next 24 hours) fashion accessory. Not gonna lie I feel crap, my throat kills & I vomited exorcist style all over the lovely nurse when they put in the first tube which was twice the size of this one (to test the muscles in the esophagus. This one is monitoring the acid reflux/belching/vomiting I constantly get) but it’s in & that’s the important thing. Apart from that I’m ok just counting down the hours until it can come back out & with any luck, get some answers as to what causes it all. I've got so much love & respect for tubies everywhere who have it so much worse & live with these tubes & monitors 24/7, honestly, how do you do it? I'm going to attempt to document this process in the hope it may help someone out there going through a similar thing so if you’re interested, click on my Instagram highlights. Also excuse the filter (although much needed) as I look rather bleh.




Originally posted: 20th March 2019

Don’t be alarmed, the tube is out & the test is over! Just was chuffed at managing to do a bit of makeup yesterday without dislodging anything or ending up with concealer everywhere! So at a quick first glance, annoying nothing horrifically wrong showed up (typically.) However, I did belch/burp approximately 563 times in 15 hours (minus the 9 hours I was asleep) during the 24 hour period, which to me isn’t normal at all! Hopefully everything will be back by next week and my doctor can see where we go forward. A massive thank you to everyone who messaged, it was really comforting to know there’s people around me who care & understand. You’re all wonderful

Just to say, I’ve also posted this on my Instagram so sorry if you’re seeing this twice but I wanted some more positivity on my blog so thought why not upload it here too.

Happy Monday, who else has got the Monday ‘ugh’ feeling? Well, it’s official. I’ve been sick a whole year. Yay! Excuse me while I pause to roll my eyes. I won’t lie. It’s been pretty shit (literally - ew sorry) and there have been more bad days than good, but you know what? I’ve made it through and in a way, I’m pretty proud. I was beyond happy to wave goodbye to the shit-show that was 2018 and now the longest bloody month in the world is almost over I can start properly looking forward to 2019 and what’s in store. With that in mind, I wanted to quickly share with you all what I’m looking forward to this year. 

  • February - I swear to God this months gone on forever and I’ll be glad to see the back of it.
  • Birthday- I turn 27 a month today and tbh that scares me a bit. Feels like I only turned 20 last week! Fun fact, Mum and I share a birthday, so that always makes it extra special. Plus it saves on buying two cakes.
  • Blogging - I really want to continue upping my blogging game this year. It took a nosedive in 2018 especially as I just couldn’t get in the mindset with everything else going on. However, I’ve set myself a few goals: to hit 500 on my insta, improve my photography & post a minimum of 3 times a month on my blog. Baby steps that I hope will make a difference. 
  • Work - As I said a few posts back, I had to leave my lovely job & friends in October because of my stomach and I miss it dearly. Honestly being stuck at home is boring AF! Really hoping I’ll be able to get back this year (& have an officially confirmed diagnosis would be nice too).
  • Family & friends - there’s been a few new additions amongst our family & friends last year & I’ve yet to meet any of them. Keeping my fingers crossed that at some point I’ll finally get to meet them all rather than stalk my poor cousin & his girlfriend whenever they upload baby photos. 
  • Be healthier - I decided to make the switch to going pescatarian a month back. I can’t eat much of what I used to anymore & tbh it’s so much kinder on the animals. I’d love to say I’m doing more but as green veg make me sick, a full-on veggie/vegan diet is sadly out the window for now. 
  • Monday, January 28, 2019

looking forwards in 2019.


Just to say, I’ve also posted this on my Instagram so sorry if you’re seeing this twice but I wanted some more positivity on my blog so thought why not upload it here too.

Happy Monday, who else has got the Monday ‘ugh’ feeling? Well, it’s official. I’ve been sick a whole year. Yay! Excuse me while I pause to roll my eyes. I won’t lie. It’s been pretty shit (literally - ew sorry) and there have been more bad days than good, but you know what? I’ve made it through and in a way, I’m pretty proud. I was beyond happy to wave goodbye to the shit-show that was 2018 and now the longest bloody month in the world is almost over I can start properly looking forward to 2019 and what’s in store. With that in mind, I wanted to quickly share with you all what I’m looking forward to this year. 

  • February - I swear to God this months gone on forever and I’ll be glad to see the back of it.
  • Birthday- I turn 27 a month today and tbh that scares me a bit. Feels like I only turned 20 last week! Fun fact, Mum and I share a birthday, so that always makes it extra special. Plus it saves on buying two cakes.
  • Blogging - I really want to continue upping my blogging game this year. It took a nosedive in 2018 especially as I just couldn’t get in the mindset with everything else going on. However, I’ve set myself a few goals: to hit 500 on my insta, improve my photography & post a minimum of 3 times a month on my blog. Baby steps that I hope will make a difference. 
  • Work - As I said a few posts back, I had to leave my lovely job & friends in October because of my stomach and I miss it dearly. Honestly being stuck at home is boring AF! Really hoping I’ll be able to get back this year (& have an officially confirmed diagnosis would be nice too).
  • Family & friends - there’s been a few new additions amongst our family & friends last year & I’ve yet to meet any of them. Keeping my fingers crossed that at some point I’ll finally get to meet them all rather than stalk my poor cousin & his girlfriend whenever they upload baby photos. 
  • Be healthier - I decided to make the switch to going pescatarian a month back. I can’t eat much of what I used to anymore & tbh it’s so much kinder on the animals. I’d love to say I’m doing more but as green veg make me sick, a full-on veggie/vegan diet is sadly out the window for now. 

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